I've been abandoned by my husband after 12 years.

My husband and I had a fairly good relationship. We had our disagreements but overall it wasn't that bad. I guess I was blind to the fact that when he went away to work all those years in camps and small northern BC towns, He wasn't always working at his job, he was working on another woman or family as well. The last time he left for camp it was routine and I always got sad and was thinking it was time now to for him to slow down and Collect his CP. I planned on starting a part time job as a grocery store clerk or something just to keep busy and to out of each other's hair. I didn't even have a clue as to what was in store for me next. This was what we had planned..... It was time that he stayed home more and it was going to be our time finally. So I was excited about that. Unbeknownst to me unfortunately I was in for the shock of my life. He had a whole new plan that didn't include me at all. When he spent his turnover at home with me the last week I ever saw him again, it was just normal. There was nothing unusual, no red flags, no arguing, It was very nice actually. Then the morning he left it was all good same as always. Everything was as it usually went and he arrived safely to camp and spent his first couple nights. Then on the third morning, I didn't get my usual 4:30 am wake up call as he did every morning. He called me every morning to tell me he loves me and I say I miss him and have a safe and great day. But nothing that morning. So when I woke at 7 am I called him and left a voicemail,.,.asked if he was feeling okay, missed his 4:30 am.... maybe he was staying in bed and not well today. I heard nothing back all morning and right through lunch which had me a bit concerned. I went to the grocery store and pharmacy at around 2pm and just as I was walking back home I got a text. It was him. It IT BLEW ME AWAY IT READ. " I'm sorry but I can't do this anymore. I'm moving on . I'll help you.". THAT WAS IT So I immediately dropped to my knees and my heart was racing my whole train of thought was one big ??? So I called back right away and I was blocked. I was blocked for 6 days and it was torture. At least so I thought. The real torture is we had 60,000 dollars in the bank. It was in his bank account. I did not get the help I needed. I couldn't pay rent so finally after fighting to stay afloat for the next 8 months I lost. I didn't go for spousal support because I just didn't have anyone to help me do all this stuff I should have been doing. I was so devastated. The reason I'm telling my story or rather a very very short version of my story is because I need some camping supplies and I just cannot afford to pay for brand new equipment. I am looking for a 4+ man tent that is clean and in good condition so no creatures can get in. I also need to find a safe source of heat for a tent. It's still quite cold at night. I have lots of blankets but I need to keep out the dampness mostly. An air mattress would be amazing but I can manage without. If you think you may have some useful equipment for me I could pay you a small amount on payday which is may 21st. I have to really watch my money though so I have very little means. Please reply to Lorraine if you can help any way possible. I only have a phone anymore as I cannot afford one. My life , my future, my whole world has just took a turn for the worst. I cannot stay in shelters. Let's just say I do not feel safe at all. If you have the means to help me with à monetary donation I could really use a bit of a nest egg in case of an emergency. Promise It will go to the most necessary expenses. Please help....I've never been in this position before. I worked hard and had a good life. I trusted the wrong man and gave him everything I had for him to "Take care of". Wow if my mother was alive today I'd never hear the end of it. Thank you Lorraine xx